It used to be you couldn't wait to get back to my room and spend time with me. now though?
Now you say that you can't wait and yet when we get here all you do is find an excuse for either you or us both to leave and get around other people.
Tonight, I tell you that I want Matt and Jeni time and I get you going back to your apartment with Time when we should be going to hang out in the pool for a bit before watching movies.
Yea, I really appreciate that.
When you asked me what was wrong and knew it was you leaving then you should have just told Tim that you changed your mind and decided you were not going after all.
But alas, no, you tell him you are ready now.
Yea, it was the fact that you decided to leave. On top of the fact that the last couple of times that we could have had us time you decided you needed to be somewhere else, you were either hungry (which I don't doubt) or you forgot something you had to do for class right that minute instead of in the 20 minutes while you were studying beforehand.
I just wish that things could go back to how they were before where there was always time for "us".
Instead of how things are now where you are avoiding it.
If things stay like this and I confront you, will you break up with me? Tell me you know and are working on it (which I DO doubt)? Or will you just get quiet, look down, and tell me you love me.
I'm betting on a combination of the last two actually, which is not going to solve anything. All it will do is anger me and I will just walk away.
I know you will follow after me or sit there frustrated instead of talking with me and telling me whats happening to make you so distant.
But I don't know if it will be in time because I am running out of patience already, being as I have never had patience in the first place.
